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Thunderstorm

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When I am scared of the thunderstorm as if it is shattering the sky, I feel like God is mad, or my Greek mythology ass thinks that Zeus is having arguments with Poseidon or Hades. I hid in my blanket and covered my ears. The sounds streamed to my soul. I thought the sky might crack or the houses would be destroyed. I whispered, “God, are you mad at us? Forgive us, human beings, forgive me,” as if He would hear me and stop the thunderstorm. I don't want to face the apocalypse, not now, I think. Somewhere between the roaring sky and my trembling chest, it occurred to me that perhaps the storm was never just in the clouds. Imagine how God will destroy the earth in an apocalypse, imagine when He says “enough” to all of us, it is more than just a thunderstorm. Definitely, no one is ever as patient and merciful as God. Yet it makes me think that patience and all the feelings we feel can break out at any time. Perhaps, because we are human, and patience has limits for us. It could appear ...
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ARE PRAYING AND WORSHIPING MEANT TO SATISFY GOD?

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“I served myself to God. I prayed 5 times a day, I fasted, I read the Qur'an more than most people, and I was willing to die or kill for God. But I never felt God was satisfied, I didn't know if He was or not” Spoken by an ex-Muslim, I watched a podcast about his journey to becoming a Christian, but I sensed a slight misconception about his perception. I want to highlight the point of how he was praying to satisfy God. However, I can tell he was raised in a tough environment and I’m not going to judge his whole journey. God is Powerful, God is Great, The Most Merciful, The Most Compassionate, The Most Forgiving. But how could He need us to make Him satisfied? Would that make Him more powerful? Or by not worshiping Him, He becomes less powerful? It feels like a random thought that came out of nowhere, but what is the correct concept behind it? Human beings, like kings such as Nimrod and Pharaoh, needed validation and satisfaction, so they demanded their people worship them...
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I am a sinner, do I deserve a second chance, third chance, or even fourth chance?

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My life has been filled with many turns, highs, and lows. There have been moments in my life when I have felt the best and the worst. I realize that sometimes I don't like myself in situations where I am surrounded by pleasures from this world. I forgot myself, I was arrogant, I was spending money for unnecessary things, but I also don’t like myself in difficult situations. Sometimes, I get upset at myself for not succeeding more often. I said to God, "I’ve tried my best, but why is it still not enough?” “Why did you do this to me? I have suffered enough.” “Am I not good enough?” “Am I so sinful that You punish me like this?” Maybe God punished me. I have a lot of sins and this is what I deserved. I reached a point where I felt completely hopeless and angry. And sometimes, when things don’t go as I planned, I become furious. I blame everything, others, or even myself. I get so frustrated, overwhelmed by anxiety, and feel like a complete failure. It seemed like my prayers weren...
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Treat People with Kindness

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Thunderstorm

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When I am scared of the thunderstorm as if it is shattering the sky, I feel like God is mad, or my Greek mythology ass thinks that Zeus is having arguments with Poseidon or Hades. I hid in my blanket and covered my ears. The sounds streamed to my soul. I thought the sky might crack or the houses would be destroyed. I whispered, “God, are you mad at us? Forgive us, human beings, forgive me,” as if He would hear me and stop the thunderstorm. I don't want to face the apocalypse, not now, I think. Somewhere between the roaring sky and my trembling chest, it occurred to me that perhaps the storm was never just in the clouds. Imagine how God will destroy the earth in an apocalypse, imagine when He says “enough” to all of us, it is more than just a thunderstorm. Definitely, no one is ever as patient and merciful as God. Yet it makes me think that patience and all the feelings we feel can break out at any time. Perhaps, because we are human, and patience has limits for us. It could appear ...
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ARE PRAYING AND WORSHIPING MEANT TO SATISFY GOD?

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“I served myself to God. I prayed 5 times a day, I fasted, I read the Qur'an more than most people, and I was willing to die or kill for God. But I never felt God was satisfied, I didn't know if He was or not” Spoken by an ex-Muslim, I watched a podcast about his journey to becoming a Christian, but I sensed a slight misconception about his perception. I want to highlight the point of how he was praying to satisfy God. However, I can tell he was raised in a tough environment and I’m not going to judge his whole journey. God is Powerful, God is Great, The Most Merciful, The Most Compassionate, The Most Forgiving. But how could He need us to make Him satisfied? Would that make Him more powerful? Or by not worshiping Him, He becomes less powerful? It feels like a random thought that came out of nowhere, but what is the correct concept behind it? Human beings, like kings such as Nimrod and Pharaoh, needed validation and satisfaction, so they demanded their people worship them...
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